bears in trees
oh. actually? alright!
cobwebs! this one held my hand through my first breakup. i'm the one who leaves (wouldnt you like to be young?) and you're the one who stays. that line was the soundtrack to waiting for the school bus during that isolated winter dark.
reverberate! a song about death and grief and love and life. i love my friends they make me feel alive again!! they sure do!!
all you get is confetti! oh my god! a very new song thats already tattooed into my heart. i cut my heart off of my sleeve so i can patch it on my jacket. this song has me lying face down in my neighbour's pool. in my scuffed up patched up jacket. (but actually if i could i would just copy and paste the whole song here. its a work of art)
life's a beach. god it sure is. oh no what a poor mistake it was to get drunk on a day like today! we had so little to talk about yet such little room between each others mouths. the week leading up to my sixth form graduation, i was invited to 3 parties and each time spent them tipsily convincing my crush not to hate my guts even though she literally offered to drive me to all three of them and invited me to a hozier concert with the phrase its "lesbian mecca youve got to come". she's my we dont speak anymore muse.
4am! one of my first loves and a song that got me through so many angst-fueled school nights. i know you're not asleep yet for gods sake it's only 4am. you're probably thinking about what you want to be despite not knowing what that means i sometimes wake up early enough to message my friends who arent asleep yet. theyre sleep deprived and about to crash and ive woken up in a cold sweat and just cant lay back down. it makes for some sweet conversations. [POSTSCRIPT: the reimagined cover from before you got here makes me BOOGIE every time i hear it. the definitive version sorry 80s remix.]
not santa monica! it's funny because it IS about santa monica. i'll wear my bad decisions on my face carefully hung around my eyelids. every summer i go "this is the song of the summer" and every summer i am correct. it is about running away to the californian heat to become street performers and passing out because it is far too hot for our brittle british bones. it is also about loving people unconditionally and wanting them to love themselves as much as you love them, even if you dont afford yourself the same luxury.
apathy is boring! i listened to the live bootleg for WEEKS before the official recording came out. it is SUCH a BLOODY tune. sadness is so last year, i want to feel alive! carve up my bones with a synthesiser!! if you have ever considered a bears in trees show this chorus should convince u immediately. you have not LIVED until you hear a whole building scream those words with you.'
doing this again! anatomically correct beating heart of the party! sorry if you were expecting some genuine heartfelt reasoning behind this one. it reminds me of one of my blorbos from my shows and thats like. mainly it. except it is also a bloody TUNE and i cant not dance a little every time it comes on.'