I shake him. my hands holding onto his shoulders as if he'd slip away into a great nothingness, like sand. I shake him and I shake him and I shake him. his eyes rattle and roll, and his damned ragdoll skull barely sits up on his neck.

i shake him and i scream at him to just fucking say something. anything. please for the love of the stars just fucking say something. tell me you hate me or that you miss me or that you wish I were dead or that you wish you were dead please. please just say something.
I do not finish screaming everything. my wrists burn and my eyes burn and I have to stop.