when I opened my eyes

he's next to me. I think.
my body curled tight,
like a cold, lonely dog.
I can't feel his warmth
but I try to hold his hand.
don't open your eyes
it isnt there, but I think it is.
whispering soft.
stroking my cheek.
don't open your eyes.
he'll disappear.
and you'll be alone in your bed.
I opened my eyes,
I know I shouldn't have
but I was so confident.
maybe I had willed him here.
the moon shed a tear and gave me her pity.
and the sun began to rise.